I Swear
October 30, 2014
“Freak!”
One word
Spat distastefully from someone’s mouth
Like projectile vomit.
It is hissed again in my ear
Echoing, stinging, I can feel it.
It burns a hole.
I sit numb, staring into the window;
Staring into space.
Ignoring the occasional flick to the back of my head
I grip the cords of my MP3 player.
Adjusting the buds in my ears
The music blasts through my head
Like a cold gust of wind.
I can’t avoid them
The words are thrown at me like darts.
I pick up what’s left of my dignity
Polish it on the sleeve of my T-shirt.
Heat spreads across my face
Anger coursing through my veins
I walk away
Try to be the bigger person.
It does no good.
They come after me, an angry swarm of bees.
Insults hurled at me
Whispered ridicules as I pass in the hallway
Curious stares, hate drenched glares.
There is no escaping them
I want to melt into a puddle
So they can’t hurt me anymore
I wish I was invisible
A shadow on the wall
But that’s impossible
I want to curl up in the fetal position
But that would be letting them get the best of me
Instead I stand straight
Comfort comes from somewhere above
A loving hand guides me through the crowd
I will not cry; I have hope.
My faith will make me strong
They won’t bring me down today
I swear.